808s and heartbreak quotes

November 28th, 2008 by climacoolsun

” I know my destination but I’m just not there…”…street lights…

“In the nite i hear him talk…the coldest story ever told…somewhere far along this road…he lost his soul to a woman so heartless/ how could u be cold, as the winter wind when it breeze yo…i mean after all the things that we been through/ i mean all the things that we got into…u walk around like u dunno me…” Heartless…

“My friends showed me pictures of his kids…and all i can show him are pictures of my cribs…/ and my head keeps spinning, can’t stop having these visions, I gotta get with it!!” welcome to heartbreak

to be continued…

fucking good…

October 4th, 2008 by climacoolsun

just realized tat my last post was not posted…dun remember what i wrote on the last one…hence I can’t recreate what I wrote but I want y’all to know tat at this moment…this precise time, i’m feeling fucking good!! chuan knows it!!! feel so fucking good!!

I’m stuck…

September 30th, 2007 by climacoolsun

Wassup yall…yeah as u can tell on my title, I’m stuck. It’s Sunday nite, I’ve got nothing to do and I’m watchin the Hills on TV…duh….man what’s wrong?? Actually I do have my grad. applications to worry about. I’m procrastinating…this is not something that I’m used to associated with. I guess there’s only this far u can go being all committed…lol!!

Well, this semester’s been hectic. 17 credit hours. I’m a senior and people do ask me why do I put myself under such burden when I have already finished most of my major classes. Yea…most of the classes that I’m taking now are just electives. Well, some are just for the fun of it. Some will I hope help me one day I guess. But if there’s one thing that I found out bout myself; it’s that when I commit to something I stick with it. That’s why I’m busting my ass right now for elective classes. I hope I can say the same about Grad school. But there are just too many things to worry about for Grad applications that I keep putting them off.

Well, at least I got some of them shortlisted. And I started on some of the applications. Tried UCLA and found out they won’t give stipend unless ur a US citizen or PR. The other universities that I’m looking at right now are U of Iowa, Washington U of Missouri and Mayo Clinic. These are all high standard universities. I’ll be set for life if I’m accepted into their PhD programs.

I looked up some British schools as well but they’re kind of limited science-wise. Looked up Melbourne U but their dateline has passed. Man, I don’t know lol…looking for a different experience I guess.

So, I just got back from Chi-town or Chicago. Didn’t have time to shop, so all I did was just eat lol. I’ve spent too much money this week anyway. Should start saving for thanksgiving. Maybe a trip or more shopping. I spent my money on concert tickets, specifically T.I and T.Pain on the 14th of Oct and Switchfoot and Reliant K on 19th of Oct. The T & T concert is like 2 hours away from here while S & R concert is like 5 minutes away by walking. I’m pretty pump bout both these concerts cuz they’re pretty cheap. $35 and $23…haha keep drooling ladies and gentleman!

What’s up with everyone getting on facebook now…it started out being an American college phenomenon but it’s now a global phenomenon lol. It’s good to see some really old friends though! Friendster’s kinda old school now. If u dun got a facebook go get it.

Homecoming’s coming up…basically it’s when all the alums come back and we party it up big time. Dun get me wrong, it’s a campus-wide activity and not some party animals’ event!! I’ll keep ya’ll updated bout it. It’s coming the week after next.

One last thing, give me ur opinion on cell phones. I was thinking Iphone or sidekick. Any suggestions at all? holla at me. Gotta go dry my clothes now. Lata!

dope!

August 6th, 2007 by climacoolsun

waddup!! just realised that I didn’t pose my last blog 5 months ago…just did a few mins ago…well, I have been home for almost 3 months now. It’s different this time around. I have changed, starting to reembrace life as it is. Shit’s been going on for a while, and I told myself that this break would be the best opportunity for me to change! just like Kanye’s Stronger…which is dope ( anything with daft punk on it is dope! remember that teriyaki boys song! long live the French!)

Well I have managed to do it…changing my views of life. The new me is a more sombre me. Dun worry, it doesn’t take away my sense of humor. But I have decided that some things are just not worth fretting. It’s either you get it or you don’t!

Soon, I’ll be leaving for US again. It’s been a meaningful break although I haven’t done much travelling. That’s about to change in a few days. I’m gonna be in Bangkok in a few days time. Hopefully I’ll get my long awaited Lacoste! Ima get HC one as well if I do find it!! Act like u know HC haha!

Things have taken a turn for the better for the past few weeks. I am reinvigorated once again. I have decided to let go of the bad feelings that I have with life…to live life in peace and serenity. I guess we can appreciate things for how it is and not regret about it all the time.

I got fitted today for my new suit and I know it’s gonna be dope. Be on the look out! I’d be looking hot as ever! lol! JK but I’m really loving this new suit. I’ve gotten it cut nicely. I was planning on getting it done for my dude, Bacon’s Sake Room’s opening. It seems that I’m not gonna make it now. Anyway, congratulations and hope that you’ll be holding it up.

Till next time, keep it real…and poppin of cuz!

LL

Helplessness

March 8th, 2007 by climacoolsun

Man, I’m on a roll now…But this might take a few tries. Have you ever felt sometimes that you know something’s gonna happen…no matter what you do to try to prevent it you know it’s still gonna happen…Yeah that’s what I’m talking about…

I had a presentation this morning on JFK’s assassination and watched a movie later tonight about his brother’s assassination, Bobby. Sort of a chilling coincidence that I was doing the presentation the same day that the movie was showing…but back to the topic, I would like to think that both men knew that they’re at risk (especially the later after John’s assassination) whenever they’re out on a motorcade or campaigning in the public. However, they kept on with their job of serving the public’s interest….

Which brings me to my point here…What determines a person’s greatness? Is it what s/he does? Are their speeches special? Are they charismatic? And I thought none of the above mattered. No one gives a heck of what you say when you’re alive…I mean you might be a good man when you’re alive but when you’re dead, your greatness is elevated. You’re embraced and glorified…Think of examples such as the Kennedy brothers, Martin Luther King, Tupac, notorious BIG…Death is ultimate…

The comeback…tell me what u think…

March 8th, 2007 by climacoolsun

I’m not even gonna explain anymore…how long has it been? 7 months….the longest time off…but I have decided to come back with one just like Jay Z did ( waiting for my gel electrophoresis while I’m done). How have all of u been? It’s been a pretty uneventful beginning to the year for me. Nope, I didn’t lose any limbs nor did I contracted any fatal disease….I have just been pressured from all directions. It’s like everyone’s trying to take a shot at you and you’re just trying your hardest to repel.

As you can tell by now, I’m not gonna talk about my life anymore. I want to talk about my views, my abstractive views. I used to hate people who do this; just typing what they think about their feelings but onc I "accidentally" read one of those abstractive blogs and I totally agreed with it. And so, this is my attempt of getting people to debate with me. I don’t care if you agree or not but just please reply to this if you can.

What do you think plays an important role in your life? It’s been a tough week for me and I have been thinking a lot…At the end of the day, I realised that there’s only one element that influence me. Forget about Newton’s law of gravity or Einstein’s theory of relativity. Here’s Lipin’s theory of time!! Do you ever wished that you had more time? I do every day. Have you ever wished that you could turn back time…I have! Have you ever thought of being in 2 spots at the same TIME? And of course, the answer is yes. So you get it now. The recurring theme of our life is nonetheless…..time !! What do you think?

We live in a material world. Everything that we do are based on our needs, we do what we need to survive. So what do you need? Security? Love? Money? Power? This has been playing in my mind for a while now, what should I treasure more? I still don’t know and hopefully God can give me a hint soon…Will you sacrifice for something you want? What if you know that it’s not worth it? Sometimes I just hope that I can look into the future and see what I’ll be in 20 years. Maybe I won’t be as paranoid as I am right now. If I know I’m gonna die in 5 years time, I would treasure everyday that I have from now on. Maybe quit school and go travel around the world. And when I’m finally done, I can go knowing that I have experienced a full life. Unfortunately, we can’t predict what will happen…the agony of being alive…What if you’re gone tomorrow? Do you think you had lead an enriching life? What do you think?

Back in late 19th century and early 20th century, there were some sociologists that suggested that we should follow our instincts more to live a full life. We should lose the rational side of authoritarian ego. I’m a Biotech major and all that I have been working with are very rational. However, since I was introduced to humanities. I have been able to see life from a different perspective. So I asked myself, should I just let go and let my instincts take over…thought about it for a while and I think it’s utopia. It would be fun but chaotic consequences will arise. What do you think?

The theme is still time. When you’re 10 you look forward to being 12, when you’re 12 you look forward to being 18 when you’re 18 u look forward to being 21….When you’re 21 you look backwards!! That’s what I have learnt….there’s nothing more to be desired. It’s a really cruel world from then onwards. Parents are getting older, siblings don’t really need you anymore, friends grow more and more distanced as everyone gets busier. You leave school and enter the harsh world of work, 9 to 5 everyday…you settle down have kids and soon you’re 40….Looking back at life, the years before 21 were the best. At least that is how I envision my life to be…hopefully I’ll get a mate for life. But fingers cross, we’ll see. What do you think?

I think I’m good for now…need to go retrieve my gel and take some photos with it. I’ll be looking forward to those replies. Till next time, take care…

Arghh…It’s almost over!!

August 2nd, 2006 by climacoolsun

Long time it has been…since my last post. Never felt like typing much for the past few months. However, I do think that I need to write something soon before I lose it totally. It’s just gonna be a short one though…almost time to sleep.

Dudes…time passes by really fast. I can’t believe that in 2 weeks time I will be back in Iowa again. This summer has been far more subtle if compared to the last. I have been travelling a lot mainly to KL and on one instance even to Bangkok but it just seems to lack a bit of something…something that I can’t explain.

I guess it’s partly due to do with the World Cup which took up a month of my life. I did nothing during the day except resting for the nite. Even my gf had to spend time watching the world cup with me. Thanks for sitting and enjoying it with me btw…

Irregularity in my biological clockwork kind of messed up my summer I guess. Anyway, I guess holidays are better than nothing. When we work or study, we always look forward to our holidays. But when the holidays drag on for too long, you kind of feel like getting back into your job or school. The thing that worries me now is that I’m kinda caught in between, not looking forward to school, neither am I towards my holidays. What should I do? Contradicting views….

I was just talking to a friend the other day about this. It seems that when I have too much time on hand I tend to regret about some things that I should or shouldn’t have done; or worry about my future. These concerns might have lead to my rather anti-climatic summer.

Aight, kind of tired now. Just blurred some meaningless comments online. What do you think of your holidays? Holla atcha boy if you have any views that you would like to share. Gtg rest. See ya’ll soon.

Oh I think they like me when they heard me on the other one…so it’s only rite tat I hit u with another one!!!

January 20th, 2006 by climacoolsun

Journal 16 – need to start keeping up…haha

It started with a journal every two weeks…and now it’s one every semester!!! I’m really sorry about not being able to update all of y’all about my life. Well, it’s Friday and I am done with classes…so I might as well write a journal before a take my nap and before I welcome the arrival of the weekends…

I managed to survive my last semester unscathed and I think I would be fine with my classes this semester (though I’m taking 4 major classes; Org Chem II, Molecular Biology of the Cell, Recombinant DNA techniques & Ecology). I have got most of the background from my microbial class and the same professor is teaching 2 of my classes (MBC & RDNA). Oh yeah, I had the shock of my life on my first day of recombinant class. My professor from Org Chem I is taking the class with me…taking a class with your ex-professor is daunting. I think some of you might still remember him from my last journal. Oh yeah and I take it back, he’s not Indian, he’s Sri Lankan. My bad. Take a look at this guy at this website (http://fp.uni.edu/chemistry/faculty.asp?ID=44&Type=2). We’ll see how our grades compare at the end of the semester. Textbooks’ prices are always crazy and I save by buying online and selling my old books online too. I have got most of the books that I need.

Ok, forget about the classes. There shouldn’t be much to brag about when it comes to classes so I’ll move onto Iowan’s favorite topic, weather. The weather has been nice since I got back. The temperature was around an average 4 degrees Celsius for the past 2 weeks. I know it might sound freaking cold to some of you but over here, we take a 4 degree day anytime of the week during winter. It’s almost as if spring has arrived. However it started snowing again over the past few days and it is snowing heavily right now; a cruel reminder that winter is here to stay!! I wish spring would arrive as soon as possible…I can put on shorts then instead of the usual jeans. It’s not that I do not like snow. In fact, I love snow. I used to hate walking in the snow as I found it lonely and cold sometimes. However, I find it invigorating nowadays to walk in snow and now that my body is adapted to this cold weather, I can take pleasure in appreciating the pleasant white scenery around me instead of suffering the agony of freezing my…BALLS off!!!

Talking about spring, I have decided to go to

Florida

for spring break. I have just decided to road trip there with a bunch of international friends. We’re going to rent a van and drive all the way to

Florida

(influenced by the brilliant road trip in

Elizabethtown

). We might stop by

Chicago

,

Memphis

, and

Atlanta

en route to

Florida

. Which part of

Florida

would I visit you might ask and to tell you the truth I’m not sure yet. There are so many hot spots in

Florida

. But one thing is for sure, I’ll meet my old pal…Mr. Bernard Bacon, that is if he has not returned to

Malaysia

yet. It will be fun and I can’t wait to get some sun tan!!

What else do I have to write? Hmm, I’m still doing the same old stuff as I always do. I still work out every Monday to Thursday, soccer on Wednesday and Friday, meeting every Wednesday, work every Monday, Wednesday and some random weekends…Just the same old routine that I stick to everyday. Oh yeah, one more thing. I had just received news from my international student advisor that I might be on the promotional signs for my university. Some of you might know that I have been trying to promote my university in some colleges in

Malaysia

. And now for the

Southeast Asia

tour that my advisor is embarking on this spring, there will be a new promotional signs that will be printed and she has asked if I would want to feature on the magazine with an interview and a picture. I’m all for it as I want to get more Southeast Asian students, moreover Malaysian students to come study here. I’m waiting for a call from the Marketing and Public Relations office anytime now. This is an exciting chance for me and hopefully I will be able to attract more Southeast Asian students here.

Alright, that’s my update for my life. Till next time…take it easy!!

Lipin Loo

3.20 PM,

20th January 2006

Journal 15…Active Lifestyle

October 5th, 2005 by climacoolsun

Intro: To those who have never received my emails for my journals…this is a long journal…my journals are usually long hehe. Enjoy. Hope those who didn’t get my email get to read it through here.

Whew, I can finally sit down and write my journal. It’s been 4.5 months now since my last journal, which incidentally was written on the night before I left for home for summer break. You have no idea how busy I have been for the past 2 months. In a week time, I’ll be here for 2 months already and it does not feel so at all. This year, I have embarked on a new kind of lifestyle. I want to be active, involved in activities and push myself as far as I can. Thus, I go to NSCS’s (honor’s society) meetings, go for soccer practice, work and of course study.

Classes have been crazy this year. I expected it to be tough though, even before class started. Well, I’m not a freshman anymore. Things get tougher when you’re a sophomore. OK, let’s talk about my class. First of all, Organic Chemistry; I need to clarify one thing before I go on… When you judge something before you get to know it, you jump to some horrendous conclusions. I was freaking out when I found out my professor was Indian. Nothing against Indians but he has a slang that makes him hard to understand sometimes. However, I like his class because his grading is lenient and I can understand the things that are going in class after I read through my textbook.

Second class is Genetics. This class starts at

9 am

, right after my

8 am

Organic class…so usually I have to work hard to keep my eyes open in this class. This class will help me for my other class which I’ll explain later. I have a 50-something professor who has long white hair. Hmm, not much to describe about this class…All in all I’m coping well. Once again another professor who is ever willing to help students out, which is sweet!!

Third class and I guess my favorite one, Humanities II. In this class, I study about middle-ages history. I like it because it’s like going to a story-telling class. The professor just tells story about history and notes are in power point presentation which is always helpful! I never fall asleep in this class as the professor has great intonation. Tests are east but there is a lot of reading material. Well, you know…it is history!!

We then move on to my forth and final class, Microbial Molecular Genetics; my most feared class. Before this I stated that Genetics helps me and it does help me in this class. Genetics should be recommended to students or set as a prerequisite for students who are taking Microbial Molecular Genetics because it contains the basics. By the way, Microbial Molecular Genetics is a class on bacterial and virus, or more specifically phages, genetics. I was dumbstruck whenever I got to class until I got my first test paper back last week. I was confused about the terms and things that were going in class. One good thing was that we started with some parts of DNA replication and protein synthesis, as I have learnt some of these before. Just to give you some stats on why I fear this class the most; I am the only sophomore or second-year student in this class. It was the first day of class and my professor who is incidentally my biotechnology advisor wants the whole class to introduce themselves. There were a total of 15 students in the class (which is a lab by the way…we mix our lectures and labs together). There was another sophomore in the class and the other students are seniors (4th yr) or super seniors (> 4 yrs); some of them have even taken this class before. On the second class, 3 students have dropped out. By the end of the second week, we have 9 students left and the other sophomore has dropped the class too. Well, I was (or I thought I was) struggling along until my first test 2 weeks ago. I did ok, and expected to get an A- because I messed up one question. I thought all the other senior students would do well as they left the room 30 minutes earlier than I did. I just tried to keep calm and finished all my questions with the most ideal answers that I could come up with. A week after that I got my paper back and I have a 92, which is also the highest in class. It was then that I regained my confidence. Now, I go to class and the professor expects me to answer all his questions which I’m still incapable of. At least I don’t make stupid mistakes doing experiments now…

Those were about my classes. Now to my job. I decided to change my job last semester. Concession was fine but I wanted a job in which I could do some studying while I’m at work. So, I looked up the job board and found the perfect job that suits all my needs: Desk Assistant at my dorm. Well, it’s like a secretary who works at the office, answering phone calls or help residents with their problems or questions. I get to study a lot when I work there and I get a healthy average of 5 hours work each week, something that I couldn’t get when I was working at the concession as I was always jostling with other people for open positions. Another advantage of this job is that I don’t have to walk far to work. The office is right down my hall, 30 seconds away from my room!! Job satisfaction guaranteed!

NSCS, National Society of Collegiate Scholars, is an honor’s society which only invites 1st and 2nd year students who have GPAs higher than 3.5. I was honored to be invited and was inducted into the NSCS in an official ceremony 2 weeks ago. NSCS provides me scholarship, internship, networking and leadership opportunities and thus I’m trying as hard as I can to join their activities. This is a great way to start of my university extracurricular as I have not been involved in any activities before this. For my first year here, I was trying to find my footing and my aim was to get a perfect GPA so that I could move on the next year. After I have achieved my goal for the 1st year, here I am in my second year trying to push myself hard and to expose potentials that have been hidden before me. Oh yeah, and there’s soccer practice. I was thinking seriously about joining the club officially and go on trips to matches. However, training and matches usually coincides with my tests and work. As a result, I only go for training once a week and I have decided to not go to the matches as my schedule does not allow me to do so. I do still keep my strict habit of going to gym every Monday to Thursday. This year I have decided to run a mile everyday. Got to work on fitness as a whole and not just muscle-wise.

Well, that has been my school life for the past 1.5 months. Besides school, I have been able to go shopping and travel with my friends. My first trip ever to Factory outlet stores (2 hours away) was awesome. Brand name clothes at cheap price are always attracting. Last weekend, I went to

Chicago

with some friends. It was a total new experience. I have seen the huge cities of

New York

or

Los Angeles

on TV but to actually see it with my own eyes was refreshing. It is a civilization that makes

Cedar Falls

, my place here, look prehistoric. High rise buildings, posh cars, lush boutiques, and lots of expensive restaurants…I hope I would be able to live this lifestyle one day. Everywhere you turn, you could see S500s, Ferraris, Lamborghinis, Jaguars, BMWs…You name it they’ve got it. Boutiques like

LV

, Gucci, Salvatore Ferragamo, Banana Republic, Gap, Nike, Guess….were packed with people; people who are able to shop. However, you could see muse or people dancing or playing music on the streets for money, beggars begging. The gap between the rich and poor is so huge… capitalism in big cities. Although we do not have posh boutiques or cars in

Cedar Falls

, we do not have beggars either. Anyway, I had lunch with my Arabic friends at a Lebanese restaurant, after that we were butlers for a rich girl who had to go shop at H&M. After shopping, we tried to look for a jazz club and ended up at a comedy club. We had the opportunity to watch improvisation comedy on headlines of newspaper. Papers are provided and audiences cut out headlines that they want the comedians to improvise on and pasted on the board at the front. Comedians then appeared and improvised. It was quite funny. After that, we tried to get to look for Indian food. But by the time we found one, the restaurant was closed already. There is a thing about

Chicago

…most of the shops close at

9 pm

. So, we ended up at an Italian restaurant. The food that I had that day ranks as the best that I have ever had in the

US

. It was expensive though. I spent $40 on food alone. Well, it’s a big city…

Ok that’s it. Got to go do some pushups and shower. It’s been raining since

noon

today so I decided to not go to the gym. Take care everyone and hopefully I will find time soon enough to write my next journal.

Lipin Loo

9.15pm

5th October 2005

P/s: would like to wish some people Happy Birthday:

       Kaylan, my roommate, (7th October)

       Rania and Hang Chuan (9th October)

       Camin (11th October)

Not a virgin anymore!! haha!!

July 3rd, 2005 by climacoolsun

Hi to all!!

       U muz b wondering wat I was talking about…I’m still a virgin but not one from a blog’s point of view. 1st ever blog…feels kind of refreshing. I have always had the urge to write and those who had received my journals before acknowledges this. Sending journals through emails can sometimes be kind of frustrating though…as some might not receive it or I might not have some of ur email adds. So, I’m now pondering at the option of probably posting my journals on this blog. I will still send out my journals through emails but it will also be posted here (Bacon..U’ll get my journals thru here, K?? haha)

          This can be considered as my unofficial summer journal. Been back for 2 months for holidays, things had passed me by really fast. I admit I have enjoyed myself but somehow it seems not enough. As I said, perhaps my treshold for excitement has exceeded my expectations. Everything tat seems to excite me in the past has paled considerably nowadays… Maybe I need to try out some extreme sports haha…who knows!! Some day u might find me skating or riding a bike on espn X games!!

        Well, one thing is for sure though…Everyone’s gone!! It’s good in a sense that everyone’s proceeded to the next stage of their lives. It’s bad though as I do not have much friends around me nowadays. I used to be able to just call up anyone I want to when i want to go out. But nowadays…sigh!! Anyway, wish all of u a happy college( university ) life.

        Last but not least…Carpe diem!! Cherish life and enjoy it fully by spending ur time wisely with ur luv ones!! Tat’s all for now!! Bye!!

P/s: Royce…gonna miss u!! but will help u get ur lights back!! I promised!         

Lipin

7/4/2005. 12.40am